Moments and lines
2:55 AM JaSoN A.k.A [j]BiTEmE
My maths teacher once told me this , life are like straight lines , and the length of the line represent time . You see , you meet alot of people in your life , your sisters , your brother , your friends , your love ones . Imagine they are lines as well .
Let me give you a hypothetical scenario : Let's say you have a boyfriend right now and u loved him so much so that you know well enough , he's the one im going to married. Now back up a little and , imagine that you are a straight line , and is moving straight on a piece of white paper , at a certain junction , at a certain time , a wild line appeared , and at that moment , you and him met and at that particular point , when the moment is just right , you fell deeply in love with him . you guys can picture it perfectly right?
Yearnings
8:56 AM JaSoN A.k.A [j]BiTEmE
If you are sick and tired of emo shit , leave now hahahahahhaha this aint for u
This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever.
You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse.
You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too.
You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them.
And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them.
That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, and normally the ones you love the most.
And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial.
And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it.
And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them
And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this.
And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's.
Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection.
And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place.
After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back.
Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...
The story of The Apple Tree
3:27 AM JaSoN A.k.A [j]BiTEmE

Alas , an untimely update on this dying space , nor will this post will spring it back to life in a jolt , I made this blog 2 years ago to pen down my thoughts , i figure i shall preach to you all about a story , a story about an apple tree , else this space rendered useless.
Truth be told , not many are willing to scale the apple tree. I bet , (not statically proven) ,alot of men out there arent happy with their marriage. There's an inside joke among guys " marriage is the end of your life "
That is not entirely true , at least not on my watch . This is simply because the assholes said this is probably the cowards that is afraid of heights and settled for rotten apples . No offences to anyone though , but if you really think your wife is a living hell , why did you marry her in the first place? If you really love her , you will say non of that. If only you got the guts to climb the apple tree. Dream big ! and work hard for it , Mount Everest is conquered one step at a time , this is just an apple tree.
If you did not reach your goal , don sulk over it , because along the way , there will be people watching your every steps. And who say's there's only one perfect apple growing on the top part of the tree? Apples grow in a bunch at a time ^^


